Saturday, March 1, 2014

Back in the Saddle Again...I think.

I have a love/hate (but I'll use dislike :)) relationship with blogging. 

I love looking back and reading about certain things since I started this blog in 2009. 
I LOVE reading my birth story with Grayson. It's probably my favorite post ever written.
I love reading about what Matt and I did when it was just the two of us.
I love reading the updates when I was pregnant. 
I love reading Gray's monthly update posts. 
I love reading about times I have shared my heart on here & the people who have read and felt encouraged. I LOVE encouraging people. LOVE it.
I love reading others blogs & feeling like you truly know them and want to be updated on what's going on in their lives. 
I love it when I connect so deeply to someone's post and I know that the Lord meant for me to read it. 
I love reading friends and families blogs because you get a different perspective on certain things that are happening with them. 
I love finding a new recipe or learning something new from blog posts.
I dislike the comparison that comes along with blogs (just like all of social media) and "keeping up with the Joneses" if you will. 
I dislike the fact that I am not very disciplined when it comes to keeping up with this blog. I guess sometimes I feel like I don't have much to write about that people will care about. 
On the flip side, I dislike feeling like I HAVE to blog, therefore a lot of times I just don't.  For a long time. 
I dislike the fact that I feel like what I put on here has to be perfect. My pictures are taken from my iphone, not some amazing camera and I think that holds me back a lot of times.
I'm sure there is more that I can't think of but that is all for now. 

With all of that said, I think I want to get back in the saddle again. I have been missing it. I just had to put my reasons for loving and hating it out there. If for nothing else, I will blog to look back on when I'm crying and trying to hold it together when Grayson has left for college. ;)

Happy Saturday friends! :)